I am in a corner. I have been bad. The weird part is that i am in my twenties. I was told to stand in the corner. I was not told for how long. I i had to just stand. I could not move.
It was getting uncomfortable. I just wanted to sit. I had to stay standing until keith my husbend told me i could sit. I could not wait. This seemed like an eternity.
How did this all come about? Lets starts at the beggining. My parents were anarchists. They beleved in the most primitive of government. That included with kids.
I was there only kid. I was unplaned. At least by them. They beleved in overpopulation and not sure it was moraly right to have a child. They were not thriled about abortion either. I got to live.
I got away with everything. I was a bit of a rotten child. I got what i wanted. I was a brat. My parents beleved that it is wrong to force order on someone.
My parents moved us to a commune. My dad and mom split up. My mom and i moved back to her home town.
I never got in serious trouble . never arested or suspended from school or anything like that. I was not easy person to be around.
My mom started to give up her neo hippi ways. She abandoned the anarchy doctrine. She started attending church and i went with her.
I never wore dreses or skirts before. I started becoming more active. It was described as fundygelical church. They were strict in some ways but not in orthers.
That was where i met Keith. One day i was shaking hands when i saw him. “Hi im mia!” i said.keith wore a suit and tie. He was soft spoken, qiet and reserve.
He was the oposite of me. He was the opposite of anarchy. He seemed to beleve in an orderly structered society. He was what would be the opposite of liberterian. He was not a totalitarian or authoritarian.
He and i hit it off very early. We started to date. We Eventualy maried. We had different ways of doing things.
He believed in male leadership. He beleved in order and structure. He bekeved that disagreements and arguments should be in private not public. There were lines you did not cross.
I had a strategy of a kind of war of atrition. I would chip away at his resolve. It created some difficulty.
The church was kind if unique. The church dresed formaly, loved contempeary and some pop music, loved king James and watch some movies and they praticed domestic disipline. I had never heard of it. I thought it was bit silly.i agreed to the rules just to make him qiet. I never did it seriously. I hoped that he would never enforce it. He was very pasive. I though that it would work.
He once told me about verious punishments. Writing asignments, time outs and spankings. I was horified. I went along with it thinking that this was rhetoric. This was his philosophy but would never actualy carry it out.
At first it worked. He did tend to be passive. He had a high tolerance. He dismised a lot of my shenanigans. He dismissed more then he should have. I had him wrapped around his fingers.
He tried to enforce his rules. I got him to back off. Then i got pregnant. I used the pregnancy card.
Today was the breaking point. I woke up grouchy. I was argumentive. He tried to kiss me on the cheek and i rebuffed him. I was rude. I interupted. I attacked everything he liked. I mocked the church , his favorate movie etc. I insulted his favorate song. He tolerated alot. More then he should have.
He took a day off from he work. He owned his own business. He wanted to have some qality time with his pregnant wife. It did not turn out that way.
It was a bad day. There was no sign of it getting better. He had enough.” mia! Go to the corner. I want you to stand up and stay standing until i tell you otherwise. ” he said.
I tried to rebuf him. He incisted i comply. He told me to go. I agreed. I wore a black sweter and gray skirt and was barefoot. I went to the wall. I stood and stood
It felt like it was an eteenity. I was mad at him. How could he do this? I thought he was being unreasonable. I have come to see his point. Maybe he had a point.
I had been rotin to him. I decided that maybe i need to change. I was gerting tired.
“Babe! You may leave. I want something different ” keith said. “Ok. ” i said.
I am determined to be different. I gues i have to start right now. So i will. Things will be different. This is a new day.